Well, of course I crashed as soon as I wrote the last post about everything being on the up and up. But things got better again, then worse, then better. It’s hard to tell which symptoms are from the illness itself and which are healing crises. I mean you can’t really chalk everything up to detoxing and herxes, can you?
A friend was reading me a quote from a discussion of Victor Frankel’s Man’s Search for Meaning (about surviving a concentration camp). The quote said that he who has a “why” will endure almost any “how”. It is the lack of “why” (purpose) that has been most difficult about Lyme. Getting better is the goal.
So I will put up with any “how” (Gerson). For instance, is it possible to have bile in your poop? Can anyone explain why green liquid came out mixed with the castor oil?? It was fat soluble, so I doubt it was green juice coming out untouched. This is like one giant science experiment and I am the subject. But it’s worth it!